I'm so close to graduation I can taste it! And I am getting very nostalgic about school. I feel like I squandered a lot of my time here. I could have been making more friends and enjoying myself...instead, I bogged myself down with work and stress and made things more difficult than I had to. Seriously, I went to a grand total of like 10 parties in 5 years, and had issues signing up for classes EVERY semester
But I don't regret it, because I am happy with my body of work, even though I'll never be fully satisfied with myself. Looking through the things I produced over the last few years, I was able to find a lot of stuff to include in my book (with a few tweaks). Even though I didn't have the typical college experience, I think I did a good job in the end.
When I started out, I was so sure I would HAVE to go into fine art. When I finally let go of that pressure I began to explore aesthetics purely for aesthetics' sake, and I got into commercial art just for the love of finishing and polishing work. Somewhere along the way, completely by accident, I managed to find my own voice. I discovered what I was really passionate about and my work reflected it eventually. I didn't have to go looking for myself or anything...it just happened naturally.
So I just now realized that, basically...compiling my book made me realize what strong connections all my pieces have to each other in spirit and style. It was something I hadn't even noticed until now. And it feels good to see that, finally
I truly believe everyone has something important to say and art is just one language we use to get that stuff out in the open. It's not bad to be interested in the technical side of art because it's like becoming fluent. You don't expect babies to write poetry when they're learning the difference between hat and cat.
I can't believe I've almost been on this site for 6 years! dA has seen me through my entire artistic career. I remember when I first posted a thread on the forums exclaiming happily that I got into art school. (I also remember some people telling me to shut up and stop posting dumb topics. hehe) My earliest works are seriously horrifying to behold, which is why I hid most of them, but I might post some later for your amusement.
On the lighter side of the news, *AbigailLarson
and I are going to work on a collaboration to commemorate our graduation